on sean lock, to lucie

12:11 [i found out, so many texts so many NO WAYs so many OH GODs NOT REALs YOUNGER THAN MY DADs]

12:25 nobody like him. literally nobody like him

— on the scale of things that are not possible thisis . up there
— christ

12:29 lucie: are u ok
— HI

12:30 thank u for coming online btw i need to . Conversate with someone
— god

12:36 no im sorry but i woke up at 7:50 first thing i see bob dylan is getting sued for sexual assault of a minor . second thing i see he wasnt even at the place of the crime when it allegedly happened . i go pick up my new shoes and buy a monster and update my website and im so content with life . And sean lock dies
— god
— christ


energy drink records looking alright
energy drink records looking alright


this is the music history of a person who just had a fav comedian die but also has new shoes
this is the music history of a person who just had a fav comedian die but also has new shoes

13:20 god its been an hour i cant stop thinking about him
13:21 ive literally known him for 8 months why am i like this


my dad reads seznam every day and he also knows i like taskmaster and sean lock wasnt in taskmaster but maybe my dad will ask me abt him \God
my dad reads seznam every day and he also knows i like taskmaster and sean lock wasnt in taskmaster but maybe my dad will ask me abt him \God


no im sorry to keep bringing him up but its an INSANE feeling to see all these its like . Its not supposed to happen u know? like “comedian sean lock” isnt supposed to “dies aged” ???? hes supposed to be there at the back of my mind doing comedy being on tv  as always u get me ???  its like theres a mistake somewhere in the matrix u know like this is Not Supposed To Be Like That
14:26 same as with sophie like for a few days i kept seeing these headlines and it wasnt rly like . sadness or anything it was just a feeling of This Is Wrong
— have u had anyone famous die like this pls tell me if u also felt like this reading all the headlines cause .

16:34 ohhhh my god sean lock is dead sean lock is no longer alive sean lock isnt living anymore sean lock is gone there will never be any more sean lock anything his life is DONE forever
— like . a man who is 2021 for me
16:36 not some guy from the 70s i liked but SEAN LOCK he was supposed to be right now
— god this is sophie all over again

16:47 no im sorry but its such a weird feeling when u remember we are in a post-sean lock world
16:49 like ? sean lock is NEVER going to exist again NEVER in the future of the entire universe there isnt going to be sean lock ever again
16:50 idk sorry
16:52 ive only had one close irl person die at a time when i already understood what rly happened and that was my grandpa in january 2018 when i had so much wild shit going on with myself so i just sat there kinda and continued with my life also i was 13 so i dont rly  . Know whats actual grief so sorry if im being too dramatic over someone like this but
— maybe its the la boheme german version



18:01 thinking abt the obituary bit he did on catsdown and at the end he said You cant write tears  like . Why did u say that funny man

18:07 i remember when u watched carrot in a box that mustve been like february
— still the best 8 out of 10 cats moment tbh

— idk which one u watched but 🥺

18:28 i think u watched the rematch
— theyre both absolute classics tho

19:08 no im sorry but i cant look at his face and know hes dead ????  THIS MAN did NOT do the action of DYING u know ???
— also like
19:09 youre not supposed to die at 58??? hes 58 hes on tv catsdown on youtube for me to watch and new episodes and
— like god
— thats SO young
— like
19:10 sean lock isnt supposed to “died far too young” sean lock is supposed to live out a life and be an old man in the future when im an adult with a job . but he died far too young
19:12 like . from now for my entire life anytime sean lock is mentioned theyll say “a genius gone far too soon” or something like that and its just like . this is NOT supposed to be said about sean lock
— like he will forever be Died Far Too Young

19:14 im making no sense
19:15 i think im relating all this to rik mayall
19:16 cause rik mayall one of the most popular respected british comedians ever died in 2014 at 56 and ive been consuming a Lot of rik mayall content this year and its just . SEAN LOCK IS GOING TO BE TALKED ABOUT THE SAME WAY AS RIK AND I CANT IMAGINE THAT
19:17 like . for me sean lock is just . sean lock a brilliant funny panel show guy that i love on catsdown ! but from now on hes only ever going to be discussed in the same way as rik mayall
— and i think im having issues w everything suddenly switching to that
— idk
19:18 when bruce dies hmu

19:35 no im sorry but ive seen all these clips so many times its insane to see them again knowing he just Will never experience a day again like Its done theres nothing more for this man
19:37 cause ive seen them so many times as funny compilations to brighten up my mood and now its called A Tribute To Sean Lock???? what the hell

19:42 this is just like sophie but also so different idk why

19:45 cause like U remember the time when i watched the entirety of catsdown in like 10 days??? i was literally spending all of my time with sean like . no matter what i did for those 10 days i always had catsdown on . and then i watched other panel shows and kept coming back to compilatons and kept seeing him over and over and laughing with him and stuff like . idk how to explain but
19:47 i feel like he had a much bigger presence in my life than sophie but then sophie meant more to me as a symbol u know ??? idk if this sounds insensitive but just like . i didnt spend as much time with sophie but i appreciated her in a deeper way ?
— so the ways of dealing with their deaths are different
— idk
— just saying words
19:48 and its wild cause sophie died like a week after i started watching catsdown
19:50 if u told me when sophie died that this year sean lock will also die i wouldnt believe u like its so .unreal cause its a panel show uknow??? its funny tv on youtube on phone hes supposed to Be Here and Do Things

19:54 god im so sorry u have to see this u dont deserve to read all this


god imagine this is u imagine ur jason manford id lose my mind if i sent this text
god imagine this is u imagine ur jason manford id lose my mind if i sent this text

20:20 idk how im gonna sleep today Godbless thank u sm for coming online

21:32 no im sorry i still cant believe it like every time i see a headline it hits me like a train again and again

like ??? this feels so fake
like ??? this feels so fake

idk how to describe it but its like the biggest issue i have is the change u know ???

21:37 like hes been such a huge part of my life i dont think ive gone a day without thinking of sean lock for 8 months and now hes just ??? never gonna be anymore until the day i die hes never gonna say another word like the guy i watch on the panel shows is completely In The Past u know ????????? when til today hes always been In The Present

21:39 idk
— :/
— sorry


see william knight thats what i cant figure out with sean
see william knight thats what i cant figure out with sean

22:22 Going to sleep rn forreal finally . thank u for talking to me abt sean

AUGUST 19TH 2021

8:20 i cant stop thinking abt him
— like . sean lock isnt SUPPOSED to be dead
— ugh




im sorry but this is NOT REAL
im sorry but this is NOT REAL

this feels inspect elemented u know ??


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